A letter for him.

i wish i could read your thoughts,

understand how you feel,

help me understand,

where your at.

i wish i could hold you close,

so i can hear you breathing,

feel you next to me (or feel you close),

where your at.

i wish you could love me,

keep me in your arms,

hold me close forever more,

where your at.

its the hardest thing to tell you,

tell someone you like them,

when you cant keep your hands off them.

you cant blame yourself,

you cant choose who you fall for,

just hope that they will never let you down.

leave me in a darkened corner, let the tears flow,

shatter me in broke glass that represents my heart.

how wrong could i be to hate the one you love,

when your the one i love for not loving me.

rain falls on my face, as i stare into the distance,

sinking to the floor, i cry out your name.

tearing out my hair, tell me how to feel,

its not your fault.

should i tell you how i feel, how i think of you,

but not because i love you, but because im scared to lose you.

laying here all alone with thoughts of you inside me.

Tears will fall on my hopes of dreams of you beside me

catch my tears i drown in notes that mean something to you and me

love you.

the thing is, im disapointed. i almost feel like you attempted to make her me you gave her things that meant everything to me. things that were us. the guys that ive dated ive never attempted to make them into you they were them they were different. but you gave her things that were me. i dont know if you knew that it would hurt me because it did it ruined us. and it will never be fixed.

GOD I FUCKING HATE THAT BITCH

i hope to god she was worth it because shes the reason you’ll never get a second chance

its like i need to cry but i cant and i close my eyes its the only time i have peace.

i feel like ive lost you and you were the only one for me.. i feel lost in my self because i want to be alone… but i want you too. i dont know what i want.

im so fucking mad.. why cant it be simple a boy and a girl being friends instead of you feeling more for me and to be honest i dont think i can feel a thing, and i dont know when ill start feeling again.

The kick in the teeth it was as his realtionship status changed from “single” to “in a realtionship” she looked across at her empty bed the one he had shared with her the night before and he always went back to her. she didnt understand it she was so much more than she would ever be she just needed time.

i guess that wasnt an option. dam.

I’d like to believe…

he never stopped caring,

he was just too stubborn to admit he still loved her.

so he waited for her to come to him,

but she had already figured out he was no good for her.

And the girl who had comforted him?

she had an hidden agenda,

because she wanted him for herself.

he loved her

she loved him

he settled for her